Thursday, February 24, 2011
Day 3
I have and have had so many great friends in my life, probably more than most people could ever claim. I don't mean just "typical" friends either, I'm talking about the kind of friends that would walk through hell with me without even having to think about asking. Over the last 3 or 4 days, the news of what has happened to me as been slowly trickling down the line to these guys and I've been having to give account. I couldn't tell them any of this for years because of my shame and my false sense of control. All of these guys know that I know that each and everyone of them would have done anything to help me, and I still couldn't reach out. I'm so ashamed, and I'm sorry. This is gonna be a rough day and I need to find a meeting. I'm committing to doing at least 90 in 90 days plus treatment. Thanks for still loving me guys, I don't deserve it.
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Patrick as you well know God will allow things to happen in our lives that are meant for us to become closer to him. This thing your going through can only bring you on your knees where you and I belong to have a closer relationship with him. He has plans for you while here on this earth that you keep selfishly resisting as I have done. This is the time and I am here to help you anyway that I can. Your friend Mike Stevens... Love you man...
ReplyDeleteIn order to begin to heal, there has to be a specific time of recognizing that you are broken. I believe you have gotten there. I will be praying that you let God guide you out of the pit to what I know he has in store for you. I love you, Son.
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