Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Dust Magnet
I have a friend who has always jokingly called me "dust magnet" as a nickname, I think I'm going to have my name legally changed to that. It really does have a nice ring to it. There have been a lot of people that I have hurt and damaged by my lifestyle, and some of them (rightfully so) are wanting to start their healing process with with me now. I'm not ready yet, simply because I don't have any natural or normal coping skills, I've always hid with substance. Please be patient with me, I want to repair what can be repaired. My wife has decided for a separation and I understand. Time to start dealing with the reality and fallout of bad decisions, and that's not just substance abuse. It's kind of ironic if you think about it, I've spent years isolating myself from people who wanted to be close with me; then I start to try and open myself up to reality and intimacy, and they isolate themselves from me. I've earned it all, but I'm sober and alive today, and I couldn't be happier about that.
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Just stumbled across your blog, Patrick. As one of your oldest friends, I will just say HANG IN THERE! You have overcome many obstacles in your life with the help of our Holy Father, so hold your chin up and press on for the goal! I admire your honesty and willingness to blog about this tough season in your life. I am so proud of you for facing your demons and fighting this disease head on. DON'T SKIP YOUR MEETINGS!! You have got this! You and your family will be in my prayers...."In my distress I called to the Lord, and he answered me. From the depths of the grave I called for help and you listened to my cry...Jonah 2:1-2 (The whole book of Jonah is very powerful in tough situations). Love ya Patrick and rooting for you to succeed with the Lord's help:) Apart from him we are nothing.... Emily F.
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